I miss sleeping. Its been at least a month since I last had a full night's sleep. Normally what happens is that I can fall asleep fairly quickly, but I only get to sleep about five hours before I need to get up and pee. Once that happens Im screwed. No way am I getting back to sleep. Tonight, however, I just cant get to sleep at all. Dont get me wrong, Im super tired and was fighting off sleep all evening, but when I finally did crawl to bed, I cant get comfortable. Now Im wide awake. Wonderful.
So I guess since its after midnight, its safe to say that Im now 14 weeks pregnant. Now that Im officially into my second trimester (only six months until baby) I was hoping that the fatigue would go away, but I suppose with the not sleeping at night anymore, I really wont be able to tell. At least my boobs arent super sore and sensitive all day, every day. The odd day they'll be a little tender, but for the most part they're fine now. And the couple of weeks that I spent queasy didnt last. My stomach is fine throughout the day, although I've lost any joy that I once had in cooking. I just cant plan a meal any earlier than the morning of, and even then its a stretch.
On the upside, Im getting a belly. Well, I already had a belly, but Im getting a bit of a baby belly. Corrine and Marilou had noticed one two weeks ago, and when my mother made the big announcement, one of her aunts pointed out that she thought I looked "a little fuller in that area" the last time she had seen me. Which was at Easter. I just wasnt seeing it though, at least not until Friday when I got up. I kept asking my boyfriend whether or not he thought I had a bump as well, but he was hesitant to answer the question since he was risking tears either way. On one hand, as he pointed out, he could say that I didnt look any different, and have me upset that I didnt. On the other hand, he could say that I did look bigger and have me risk thinking he was calling me fat. I've gotta give him credit, sometimes he knows when he should think about what he says before he says it. He didnt actually notice a difference until he was performing oral sex on me and looked up and could no longer see my face from that vantage point.
But I can say that as of Thursday I had not gained any weight since I had seen the nurse the week before. In the meantime I had to provide samples for the standard prenatal blood and urine testing, all of which came back perfect, and apparently I have a superhuman immunity level toward measels. Which is good, I guess. That means the baby should be born immune as well I would imagine. At my appointment, she tried to do a pap, but only got as far as doing the swabs, because she couldnt actually find my cervix to do the pap. Im sure you're wondering where the hell my cervix would be hiding, but see, one of the fun things they dont tell you about pregnancy is that, to prep your vagina or whatever, your body starts this fun new discharge. Mine was blocking my cervix, so the nurse decided she'd leave that part until I see the doctor who will be taking care of my pregnancy from now on.
{Monday, April 21}
Sleep soon? Maybe?
