At about 5:00am tomorrow morning, my mother and I will be making the five hour trek so that she can get tests done to check for a blockage in her heart. Tomorrow afternoon is the pre-test thinger, the actual test isnt until 6:30am Wednesday morning. If they find a blockage, they're going to see if they can repair it then and there. I guess if they find something they cant repair right away they'll have to schedule actual surgery I think. Hopefully it wont get to that point, but either way. I'll be stuck in a hospital waiting room five hours from home, alone, and all the worst case scenarios are running through my head making me a wreck. I was doing fine until today, but I suppose it had to hit me at some point. And of course its going to hit me in a way that makes every other little thing that I've been worrying about come up and smack me in the face. I can see fighting with my boyfriend over something that, if I wasnt going away, would be a non issue, but because Im already stressed Im going to make a mountain out of a molehill and start a fight about it. Then again, we haveng fought in a couple of weeks so maybe we're due. Normally I'd be happy about going to the city, but I just cant wait to come home on Thursday.
Im not as strong as I pretend sometimes.
{Monday, March 17}
So, crying is fun, I guess.
