Sometimes its the offhand comments that catch me by surprise and devistate me all over again. Its the realization that you cant always trust the people you think you can. You never know until afterwards, the extent of disrespect that people can have for you, and that you may think someone has your back, but in the end you realize that they really dont care and would rather enable others to lead you on. Blood is not thicker than water, and normally I dont hold grudges, but the more that I find out, the more this leaves a bitter taste in my mouth. Its not fair that Im the one who cant sleep at night, that Im the one who's up until sunrise crying over things I wish could have been, over people that I wish could have cared.
Honestly, its no wonder I question my own self worth.
{Sunday, July 29}
I need you to show me the way from crazy I wanna be so much more than this
