The worst is when Im just sitting home chilling and a wave of sadness rolls over me and for no reason I just start crying. Tonight, not only am I crying, but I just want to vomit* and make it all go away.
*I dont want to start letting myself vomit it all away. I recognize that its one of the ways I used to self-harm when I was really messed up a few years ago. I dont want to go back there.
{Monday, June 18}
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