{Wednesday, April 25}
I need you to feel this I need this to make me whole
It was when she asked me when the last time I ever felt happy, that it really hit home. I've never actually felt happy, never that I can ever remember. I knew I was making the right choice, I cant live like this any longer. Today, you see, I broke down and walked into the ER of the Regional hospital and admitted that I needed to talk to someone about the overwhelming sadness and anxiety that I've just gotten sick of dealing with on my own. My breakdown that I took a week ago wasnt the first one, not by any means. I've been dealing with this as long as I can remember. The first time I wrote a suicide note was when I was 13 years old. How I've managed to get this far without having sought help before, I really have no idea. Today was maybe the best decision I've ever made.
