{Saturday, December 31}
05.12.31 x2
Im heartbroken, Im absolutely heartbroken. Im too sick to go out. Im too fucking sick to go out. I spent most of the day in my bed, literally unable to get up. At one point I decided that I'd get up and get a shower because I was cold and showers usually make me feel better. I couldnt stand up in the shower because I was afraid I'd fall, so I sat on the floor of the tub and cried because I knew I wasnt going to be able to go out tonight. I was already talking to Janice (well, trying to talk, I wasnt succeeding very well) and I told her that if I felt better later I'd take a run out just to see everybody. I cant describe how upset I am at being this sick. I wasnt this sick yesterday goddammit! Its not even The Cough, Im just feeling generally ill. Im weak and tired, and I cant eat at all. I tried drinking orange juice and it burned my throat. I think Im going to go get another shower and hope that it will give me enough energy to run out to Janice's to at least see everybody for a little while. This isnt fair.
