Ever wake up and just know that it is going to be a miserable day? Today has been one of those days. I woke up today with the most increcible feeling of dread, and it certainly wasnt lying. I dont see it getting better anytime soon either. I've been miserably depressed since Friday, and Im sick of being lectured by my mother and my boyfriend about money. My mother just yells at me, Im used to that. Today I had to borrow a considerable sum of money from my boyfriend until I get paid in 3 days. He acted like I was asking him to donate a kidney. Then he proceded to make me feel less than a person for daring to ask him for money. He hasnt hurt me this bad in a while. He said that he wasnt mad at me, he was just mad. If he wasnt mad at me, he really didnt have to take it out on me. Not today, Im barely hangin on as it is. I've just been feeling that it might be a lot easier on everybody if I wasnt around...
*sigh*
{Tuesday, February 10}
