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{Saturday, September 6}
I went to the bank to see about a loan. The loan officer (Joe) said he'd get back to me today about whether or not I was going to get it. He didnt get back to me today. Today being Friday I will have to wait until Monday to hear back. This is going to be one long weekend.

I got a haircut. I've never had my hair this short in my entire 22 year existance. Well, maybe in the first year or so it was this short, but that's beside the point. I've always had long hair. I like long hair but my hair gets too fluffy because its so thick. Everyone always says that my hair looks "so nice". I hate it most of the time. I suppose thats normal. I have to deal with my hair, spending half an hour to "do" it just so it can be messed up by rolling around in bed for a little while. I like my hair this short though. Im hoping that it wont take half an hour to "do" when I finally get a chance to "do" it. Its really easy now, which I like. Easy is good. Easy has no stress attached to it. No stress is GREAT!

Speaking of stress, Boyfriend is still going away next weekend. I still dont want him to go. I cant put my finger on it but I've got a nagging feeling about it that just wont go away. No point in trying to talk him out of going either. He's gonna go no matter what I say, think, or feel about it. I know who he's going to be staying with, and I didnt even have to ask. I was waiting to see if I was going to have to ask about it. Im trying to keep my distance from the whole thing, I dont really want to talk about it at all. I feel the way I feel, and he's gonna do what he's gonna do. No point in getting me all upset for nothing. I get upset very easily anyway, we dont need to exploit that.

*sigh* I've got a cancor on my tongue and it hurts like fuck. Well most fucking doesnt hurt, just doggie style, but saying "it hurts like doggie style" just isnt kosher. Its to the point where I cant eat comfortably or let it get too dry. I was told by the lady I share a cube with at work not to eat any salt. No chips, no fries, no popcorn. Its hard to survive at work eating no chips. There's nothing else really that I can have. Dry food like cookies and bread hurt my tongue. If I get soup I like my soup salty so there goes that. Hot or warm food hurts. So Im limited to wet, cold food. I'll have to work on this some more. Im going to the movies Sunday night and I dont know what the hell Im going to eat. I have a thing that I have to eat something during a movie that Im watching. Normally I'll get popcorn. Now I cant fricken eat popcorn, or at least until my tongue gets better.

Urgh!!!

Double urgh!!!

Im going to bed.



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