tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-37048172011-04-22T02:30:09.062-03:00Skin and tragedy always attract a crowd. (June 18th, 1976 by Pedro the Lion)<br>I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd | Cause these words are my diary screamin' out loud | And I know that you'll use them however you want to. (Breathe (2am) by Anna Nalick)eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.comBlogger9251100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-77708951843767667182008-07-07T11:30:00.001-03:002008-07-07T11:33:00.862-03:00

Very interesting. Other researchers are studying the ways in which depression interferes with basic bodily processes, such as sleeping, sex drive, and weight control. Like the paralyzing sadness, which remains the most obvious manifestation of the mental illness, these symptoms are also byproducts of a brain that's literally withering away. Maybe that explains why I've put on weight, and lost my

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-1040525937949228652008-06-29T14:29:00.000-03:002008-06-29T14:30:21.334-03:00

Interesting.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-78018382865869772802008-06-23T11:24:00.000-03:002008-06-23T11:25:20.090-03:00

Im not dead, I promise.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-25124448127906342862008-05-27T14:39:00.002-03:002008-05-27T14:51:46.847-03:00

So, all of last week I was holed up in my bedroom fairly depressed. The bleeding, while moderate to light, was not stopping. Saturday night he and I went to a party at his friend's house, where I proceeded to get hammered and actually have a good time. Sunday afternoon the heavy bleeding started again. Im talking about the heavy bleeding I suffered through on Mother's Day, passing tissue and

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-75644150329918560072008-05-16T19:32:00.003-03:002008-05-16T19:33:49.832-03:00

So, I've totally been into LOLcats since ages now, but today this one made me laugh out loud.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-10305696991473212652008-05-16T15:23:00.004-03:002008-05-16T15:32:10.656-03:00

Im currently on day seven of bleeding. Never again am I going to complain about my period.I was doing okay for a few days, but yesterday and today I've been taking it really hard. I guess the realization that Im not having a baby has finally set in, and its heartbreaking. I dont want to not have a baby, I dont want to not be pregnant. Yesterday, I just spent the morning sobbing to the point where

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-4419577778334019942008-05-13T10:37:00.003-03:002008-05-13T11:13:01.380-03:00

So, for weeks I had a feeling that something wasnt right regarding my pregnancy. I didnt feel like I was having the symptoms that I should have been, I wasnt getting any bigger (at my last appointment I was down four pounds), and at both appointments where they tried to find the heartbeat with the doppler they couldnt. Everyone was reassuring me that I shouldnt worry, that I should think

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-90048722391797743902008-05-11T08:25:00.002-03:002008-05-11T08:26:08.605-03:00

Cruelty is having a miscarriage on Mother's Day.Its over.I cant talk about it yet.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-85220360690456370162008-05-10T14:43:00.001-03:002008-05-10T14:44:35.731-03:00

Because worrying about slight spotting is exactly what I need to do today. Yeah, color me terrified.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-27718815554571581062008-05-10T12:35:00.002-03:002008-05-10T12:38:29.816-03:00

Im miserable. I wish I could go back to bed and wake up and just be happy. Like, right now, I just want to sit and cry and I have no real reason to. I cant explain it, but I find myself withdrawing and not wanting to talk about it all. So, in the end I only end up feeling lonely. Guh, why cant things just be easy?

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-59760626700213184232008-05-07T14:07:00.003-03:002008-05-07T14:10:15.200-03:00

So, since my due date was changed Im technically fifteen weeks now. Here is a terrible shot of my belly at fifteen weeks. Take note of the dog, who hardly lets me walk the length of myself without her being at my heels now. Also, if you look closely, you can see my enormous breasts bubbling out over the top of my shirt. Im running out of brassieres that actually hold them in now. Oh, also note

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-15441973709465589982008-05-06T23:46:00.003-03:002008-05-07T00:38:38.299-03:00

So Im at that stage in my pregnancy where there's not much of anything going on. Everything happens mostly in the first and third trimesters, and all that really happens in the second is that you start getting bigger. I have yet to start to really show, so I have myself convinced that something's gone wrong. I cant bring it up to him because he just gives me the "Oh dont worry about it" line,

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-52804361965528947802008-04-27T23:28:00.002-03:002008-04-27T23:32:38.346-03:00

This is exactly what my hormonal ass should not be reading, but I managed to make it through the whole article without crying. I then started to read his blog, and Im now hysterical in tears.Dont even get me started on the episode of A Baby Story where the lady ended up dying of cancer shortly after her baby was born.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-25461312290716860992008-04-23T13:12:00.003-03:002008-04-23T13:14:22.880-03:00

So, as of right now, there is a total of six girls on my Facebook who are also pregnant. Four of them are from my graduating class. Im wondering if there's something in the water.I was given a date for my ultrasound, I go on May 21st, which also happens to be my boyfriend's birthday. He's excited. I was hoping it would get me out of buying him a present, but no such luck.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-77088268527188518672008-04-21T00:13:00.003-03:002008-04-21T01:32:32.671-03:00

I miss sleeping. Its been at least a month since I last had a full night's sleep. Normally what happens is that I can fall asleep fairly quickly, but I only get to sleep about five hours before I need to get up and pee. Once that happens Im screwed. No way am I getting back to sleep. Tonight, however, I just cant get to sleep at all. Dont get me wrong, Im super tired and was fighting off sleep

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-18901673203362326572008-04-11T13:11:00.003-03:002008-04-11T15:21:01.195-03:00

Yup, Im pregnant.Take a moment to absorb that.Okay, ready? Im about twelve and a half weeks and my estimated due date is October 20th. I've actually known about it for a couple of weeks now, but we're not rushing out to tell everyone all at once. We're taking our time with that, letting a few people know at a time, starting with those closest to us and now we're gradually allowing those people to

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-73245362730781444072008-04-11T00:10:00.002-03:002008-04-11T00:10:59.801-03:00

I told you it was out all the time.I tried to take a video of her snoring, but she woke up and glared at me and then rolled over in a huff.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-11084073709218082172008-04-07T23:08:00.002-03:002008-04-07T23:12:13.143-03:00

And yes, that's how she sleeps all the time.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-2259472321714694632008-03-29T10:42:00.003-03:002008-03-29T10:50:21.908-03:00

Oh fun, now Im accident prone? Yesterday afternoon when I was going with Corrine to pack stuff up at her mother's house I slammed my pinkie finger in the door as I was running out. Then just before, when I was heading upstairs to make toast, I tripped on my slipper or something and I fell up the stairs, landing hard on my right shin and now I have an awesome new lump there. I bet by tomorrow

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-52305654388684609122008-03-17T12:19:00.002-03:002008-03-17T12:31:40.432-03:00

At about 5:00am tomorrow morning, my mother and I will be making the five hour trek so that she can get tests done to check for a blockage in her heart. Tomorrow afternoon is the pre-test thinger, the actual test isnt until 6:30am Wednesday morning. If they find a blockage, they're going to see if they can repair it then and there. I guess if they find something they cant repair right away

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-19600080488501133552008-03-07T22:30:00.003-04:002008-03-07T23:12:18.217-04:00

So some guy made music using only sounds from Windows 98 and Windows XP, and it sounds pretty neat. Watch.Wow.And, it would be a special kind of person to get aroused by a fetishised Nintendo character.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-24300436705711524552008-03-06T00:48:00.003-04:002008-03-06T00:55:28.522-04:00

Its not like he couldnt have tried to get out of it so that he could be my emotional support tomorrow. But he didnt offer, and I shouldnt have to ask. Im worried enough as it is, I really dont need to be disappointed and frustrated on top of it, but whatever. Fighting about it isnt going to get me any further ahead, and I doubt it would even make a difference. Its not even like its something that

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-12009603564977270042008-03-03T20:15:00.002-04:002008-03-03T21:11:55.408-04:00

The highlight of my day so far was the hospital waiting room. Sad? Perhaps, but it'll probably be the highlight of my week. Today it was going with my boyfriend while he had his bone scan done, tomorrow is taking my mother for her EKG, and Wednesday is taking my mother to the pain clinic. Although Im sure I can whine my way out of that one. I dont need another really early morning. Today was

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-2567589857968954592008-02-21T12:56:00.004-04:002008-02-21T13:17:22.879-04:00

So, last night after supper my brother and my boyfriend were outside on the front step having a smoke. The large dog was already outside on the rope, and the little dog was in the house crying because obviously what was going on outside was much more exciting than what was happening inside. So, against my normally good judgment, I figured I could let her outside with them on the step and between

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-24610374420600769002008-02-16T00:05:00.002-04:002008-02-16T00:16:31.662-04:00

I dont watch American Idol, or Canadian Idol, but every season I cant help but catch bits and pieces of shows, to get an idea of who's competing and if there's anyone that I like. This year I happened to catch the episode where they featured Josiah Leming and as soon as I heard him sing I knew I liked him. He had a voice that was familiar in an Emo kind of way. I was disappointed when I found out

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-91408443876866750312008-02-15T11:58:00.003-04:002008-02-15T11:59:50.370-04:00

YES! Its like the closest thing I have to a soap opera, and I so wanted them to get together. I hope Jeph doesnt disappoint.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-67942241401181256532008-02-05T18:33:00.000-04:002008-02-05T18:39:55.653-04:00

Funny, I had never heard the term "Pancake Day" until this year. Despite no longer considering myself Catholic, I come from a traditional Catholic background, and always knew this day as Shrove Tuesday. I suppose its odd but I go out of my way to eat pancakes on Shrove Tuesday, as well as not eating meat on Ash Wednesday or Good Friday, and they're really the only religious traditions I hold on

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-29358050298859913692008-02-02T01:42:00.000-04:002008-02-02T01:45:44.387-04:00

Oh how I long to be rich if only to purchase things from Etsy.For example, I dont wear rings, but I LOVE this. This and this, though, are actually things I would wear. Dont even get me started on handbags.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-52013078520203288652008-02-01T23:26:00.000-04:002008-02-02T00:48:30.040-04:00

Despite the fact that I guess we're now "fine", Im not so naive that I think this isnt something that we're going to fight about again. I know this because he refuses to see where he was wrong, and that's perfectly okay because I stood up for myself, and I'll stand up for myself the next time and the time after that. He can try and turn it around and make it my fault as much as he wants, but Im

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-671655700101002382008-01-22T02:37:00.001-04:002008-01-22T03:10:35.618-04:00

So, my mother started last week going to this clinic thingy for chronic pain sufferers. Lucky me gets to start driving here there tomorrow (she goes four days a week I guess). This means that I have to force myself out of bed at the asscrack of dawn sevenish, to drive her almost an hour over there for a fifteen minute appointment and then drive back home. I may need rum to make it through this.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-37898877549751710722008-01-18T03:27:00.000-04:002008-01-18T04:03:54.400-04:00

Its the middle of the night, and again sleep is something which apparently Im not entitled to at the moment. It isnt like I sleep all day or anything, the latest I ever sleep is 11am, and yesterday I was awake before that. I dont nap in the afternoon or evening, so there really isnt a good reason for me to not be able to sleep at night. Yet, here I am, wide awake. There's just something niggling

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-58520794917167652792008-01-15T01:56:00.000-04:002008-01-15T02:34:45.790-04:00

I tried sleeping, but that was a failure. Pity, since I am rather tired.Today we're trying this new thing where I go for the grocery order myself, rather than my mother go and then I have to make an extra trip for additional running around. This way, I do all the running around on one day, and then she goes on the regular day with the girls and picks up what we may have run out of. I can see this

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-67650639915555819312008-01-12T00:06:00.000-04:002008-01-12T01:58:15.751-04:00

Its kind of funny how holing up and playing Twilight Princess for a couple of days brought me halfway out of the blahness I've been dealing with the past couple of weeks. Im not "better", but Im not as depressed as I've been. I think it started before Marilou's wedding when I just felt bigger than I was at Corrine's wedding in October. I know I've put on weight, but its nothing noticeable,

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-54633654351412828702008-01-11T15:18:00.000-04:002008-01-11T15:24:09.800-04:00

Thanks to my brother, I learned that a person who does a lot of Ecstasy is an Etard. Thanks to this article, I leared that if you live in Canada and you do "Ecstasy", you're probably doing more meth than anything else. In the summer of 2006, for instance, Canadian police seized 10,000 pills sold as Ecstasy that were destined for New York, and a laboratory test found they contained 80 percent

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-61656163972697069232007-12-25T22:06:00.000-04:002007-12-26T00:58:24.507-04:00

While, my Christmas season isnt over until after Boxing Day, I can gladly say I no longer have to eat turkey. Let me go on the record and say that turkey dinner is one of my least favorite meals. I can handle turkey on a hot sandwich or in soup or something, but I dont like just sitting and eating turkey. I've actually been known to sit down to turkey dinner and eat just veggies and stuffing.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-80669179273803224952007-12-21T16:02:00.000-04:002007-12-21T16:41:37.184-04:00

I only just found out that today is Humbug Day, and its rather fitting since I realized only today that Im spending a lot of my energy trying to stave off a bout of holiday depression. I hate the Christmas season in general mostly due to the pressure put on people to get the best gifts and whatnot. Combine this with being expected to have the house and baking done all by myself puts a lot on my

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-56120302240540042672007-12-20T18:44:00.000-04:002007-12-20T18:53:03.715-04:00

Greatest. website. ever!Also, I think this must be sort of what its like to date me.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-66042108363786776142007-12-12T20:31:00.000-04:002007-12-12T21:19:36.033-04:00

I have yet to decorate for Christmas, but Im perfectly alright with that. In fact, I have a perfectly good excuse, we're renovating. Well, we're just doing the floors over, but it means that we're left to pile all the furniture into one room at a time so there's no possible way to decorate with the house in an uproar. That's fine by me, I loathe Christmas anyway. What I am looking forward to is

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-41203788439132524252007-11-22T00:49:00.000-04:002007-11-22T02:03:48.981-04:00

So its one thing to take him to someone's house and have him run inside for a few minutes to buy weed, but its something completely different to pick up some guy from the sidewalk downtown, and drive around the block while they make their transaction. That's a drug deal. I find it amusing now, but at the time I had anxiety because its almost as bad as when I accompanied my brother to pull up to

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-16534160448832336592007-11-14T21:41:00.000-04:002007-11-14T21:45:53.917-04:00

Im ruined and the internet did it to me.Sometimes when Im too lazy busy to put my laundry away immediately I'll dump it in a pile on the floor until I can put it away. So there was a little brown monster curled up on my pile of otherwise clean clothes, and I wanted a pair of jeans from this pile to wear to go housesitting for the night with my boyfriend. Im always talking to my dogs, usually just

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-64661571364138759102007-11-10T19:17:00.000-04:002007-11-10T20:31:52.061-04:00

He's been so upset the past couple of days, today I did what any awesome girlfriend would do: I took scantily clad photos of myself with my cell phone and txted them to him. Now he'll have spank material with him wherever he goes! Actually Im pretty proud of myself over it. Every now and then I have these bursts of self esteem, like when I purchased (and wore) a bikini this summer. Maybe its just

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-88222379355814465022007-11-07T11:58:00.000-04:002007-11-07T16:29:06.192-04:00

He wasnt offended at all that I was under the opinion that he'd have sex with anything that would pay attention to him, but he was appalled that I would think he'd have sex with a certain person who I used to be friends with. I dont know if "amusing" would be the word I'd use, but its certainly odd. I mean, I had heard long ago (from reliable sources of course) that she had tried to pick him up

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-65235422516787731482007-10-30T20:14:00.000-03:002007-10-30T20:53:28.996-03:00

I hate today. Today sucks and I quit.It started last night, really. He was off today, and we had plans to make caramel apples. He had mentioned a month ago that he'd like some and I told him that if he provided the ingredients I'd make them. Anywho, the plan was for me to stay at his house last night and then we'd get up this morning and stop in his store for a few minutes, and then do our

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-81837967982958334252007-10-26T00:54:00.000-03:002007-10-26T01:14:16.606-03:00

So tonight, for the first time in ages, I sat down at 10pm to watch Grey's Anatomy by myself. This season, he's been coming over to watch it with me, but the last two years I'd be sitting in front of the television with my laptop on my lap so that I could "watch" the show with other people, mostly Corrine who was away at university. Anywho, tonight he was exhausted from working fifteen hours, and

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-75610990528094157352007-10-21T10:52:00.000-03:002007-10-21T11:08:48.383-03:00

Mother decided that today we should drive for an hour to get fresh produce off of a farm. Normally I long Sunday drives, and farms, and fresh produce, but I dont much care to be her chauffeur and personal assistant. In case you've forgotten, she's physically handicapped and milks it for what its worth. She can do whatever she wants, she just wont, although now that the doctor has given her

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-24522585690209543122007-10-14T01:03:00.000-03:002007-10-14T01:50:44.125-03:00

I detected a sense of, dare I say, pride when he was referring to having read my last post. He obviously has no problem with me discussing our sex life in a public forum, not at least while Im saying good things, that is. Nonetheless, we're still on our streak, and I think tonight surpassed last weekend because he used his Mad Skillz™ to bring it to the next level, and Im sure if anyone could

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-28932046720135596822007-10-12T01:49:00.000-03:002007-10-12T02:36:43.646-03:00

My hair is now black black, save for three blond highlights at the front of my hair, as opposed to being blond all summer. I wasnt sure if I liked it or not originally, because it was such a drastic change, but I've fallen in love with it and realized how much I missed having dark hair. I think I'll keep this a while.Im actually quite contented these days. Corrine's wedding went off pretty

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-26378803597265947282007-10-02T03:21:00.000-03:002007-10-02T03:48:22.374-03:00

I nearly took a chunk out of my finger today while chopping onions. There was minimal blood loss, but my brother said it was my own fault for using the french knife to chop vegetables when Im not trained to use one. Frig him, I like to do things the hard way, and if that means losing a finger so be it.Technically the drastic changes take place tomorrow. I cannot even describe my excitement.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-91592658188279744282007-09-28T12:43:00.000-03:002007-09-28T12:47:09.120-03:00

Okay first it was I Can Has Cheezburger?, now its Cute Overload. But really, is this not absolutely adorable?Plus, bebeh stingray!

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Go to http://www.careercruising.com/. Put in Username: nycareers, Password: landmark. Take their "Career Matchmaker" questions. Post the top ten results on your own blog or journal.And here's my top ten. Amusing, no?Computer Support PersonDatabase DeveloperWeb DeveloperBusiness Systems AnalystArchaeologistVeterinary TechnicianFilm ProcessorOffice Machine RepairerCable Installer and

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My eczema is acting up and Im like a dog with fleas. My major issue is that I cut all my nails off (you would think that was silly) so Im constantly going around looking for something sharp with which to scratch myself with. My favorite is the cover from the battery part of the television remote, but I'll resort to anything really (scissors, combs, even bottle caps). Right now I may be bleeding,

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And all of a sudden the bachelorette is over, and the wedding is three weeks away. As scary as that is, we had a great time last night. Poor Corrine was terrified of what we were going to do to her since every time she asked what was going on we'd tell her something ridiculous like to make sure she brought her health card and a helmet. That part was kinda fun, I mean she should have known better

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A day is made awesome when you go into your closet, pull out a pair of pants you havent worn in a couple of years, and they're baggy and hanging off of you rather than being snug like they were the last time you wore them. And, to think, I dont believe people when they tell me I lost weight. A fair amount of weight, by the way these pants are fitting me, hooray for me. Granted, I should have

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Because I wasnt sick enough over the past couple of months, yesterday and today my body decides its going to go ahead and get a cold. Only, technically im not sick yet. The only reason I know that Im getting sick is because I've been so friggin cold the past two days that my muscles ache. Im not just talking slight aches, I mean I can hardly move because my hips/back/shoulders/neck are so sore.

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Sometimes Im more stuck up than I give myself credit for. Maybe its because I generally just do my own thing, so when I see people jumping on bandwagons I tend to roll my eyes. Ahh well.In other news, there was a murder yesterday that I had heard about, but was told by my friend tonight that it happened two houses up the road from where he lives. Im sure glad I dont live in the ghetto.

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Today he learned that when Im really annoyed I clean. He learned this when he came to my house and I had the living room practically sparkling, the kitchen clean all but for sweeping, and both utensil drawers organized. At least I got something done.On the upside, he doesnt have to go away for at least the rest of the week. His own store is understaffed so he has to take the manager position

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Im having a breakdown and Im completely alone.I cant do this anymore.

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Tonight we survived our first fight since we started seeing each other again*, which, all things considered is actually pretty good. When you look at all of the baggage from before that we've had to work through to get this far, and our first fight was today, over something unrelated to our previous relationship, I think that's pretty good. Nonetheless, we had a fight, on the worst possible night

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I went to the weddin' and I had a pretty good time. The girls he went to highschool with treated me the same as they've always treated me, despite me having spent our years not having a good word to say about him, and making sure everyone knew how he treated me. Although I wasnt looking forward to attending this wedding (Im better friends with the bride's ex boyfriend than I ever was with her),

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This evening we learned that when Jenna is being all seductive, and you feel that that moment is imperative to go outside to have a cigarette, by the time you come back in Jenna will be contentedly playing video games and the moment for getting your fuck on (for the third time that evening) will have passed.My sex drive is somewhat fickle, and when I want it, I want it now.Tomorrow he's going to

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After this article, I may have discovered a new favorite columnist.

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Im done.I quit.I realize that I cant live up to other people's expectations. It may be easier just to not try, than to deal with the guilt and depression of knowing that no matter what, someone is going to be disappointed with me.

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Sometimes its the offhand comments that catch me by surprise and devistate me all over again. Its the realization that you cant always trust the people you think you can. You never know until afterwards, the extent of disrespect that people can have for you, and that you may think someone has your back, but in the end you realize that they really dont care and would rather enable others to lead

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Move Along by The All-American RejectsGo ahead as you waste your days with thinkingWhen you fall everyone sinsAnother day and you've had your fill of sinkingWith the life held in yourHands are shaking coldThese hands are meant to holdSpeak to me, when all you got to keep is strongMove along, move along like I know you doAnd even when your hope is goneMove along, move along just to make it

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We broke his penis tonight.It started innocently enough, I had been somewhat horny throughout the evening, so when Amanda dropped me off I called him to come and pick me up. I figured I'd get all sexified and changed out of my jeans and into a little skirt without panties. When we got back to his house I pushed him down on the chair in the living room and proceeded to mount him. Note, the chair

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As ridiculously gaggy as it may be, never in my life have I felt so... um, loved as I have last night. I mean, I've known for a couple of months that he loved me, even before he told me. I could tell just by the way he looked at me, but I refused to allow myself to have feelings in return. I fought it because I am so damaged, not just from him, but in general, and I was afraid that it would turn

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All The Same by Sick PuppiesI don't mind where you come fromAs long as you come to meI don't like illusions I can't seeThem clearlyI don't care no I wouldn't dareTo fix the twist in youYou've shown me eventuallyWhat you'll doI don't mind...I don't care...As long as you're hereGo ahead tell me you'll leave againYou'll just come back runningHolding your scarred heart in handIt's all the sameAnd

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There's a big ole "Im Afraid of the Fireworks" party going on in my bedroom right now and there's a small beige mongrel currently taking up half of my bed. Its quite um, cozy. Hopefully once I decide its time for me to sleep she'll go back on the floor to curl up on my pile of clean clothes that Im too lazy to put away.Although there was some friend drama earlier in the evening, but my evening

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Save for a few incidents, life has actually been good lately. And, when I say incidents, I mean issues that had me really upset at the time, shaking even, but once I got a chance to vent to him about it I felt better. I realized tonight that the fact that I can vent to him means that I at least trust him that much. Then again, he doesnt get defensive over things, perhaps because I dont just bring

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Sorry about the password only thing, I was testing something. I've accomplished what I set out to find out, and things will stay as "normal" as possible from now on.

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He pegged me as soon as I walked in the door pretty much. I had never actually gone to see a psychiatrist before, so I wasnt exactly sure what to expect, but he was warm and friendly and inviting and funny, and most of all he was comfortable. As I was walking in and sitting down he said "You're soft, you go out of your way doing everything for everyone else, and always put yourself last", which

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So Facebook did it again. It made another guy Im broken up from message me out of the blue. I got this today from the guy who dumped me on New Year's Eve: I'm sorry for flipping out. Anything that may negatively affect my relationship with *the baby* kills me. Unfortunately, *baby momma* is not one to trust and she has in the past stopped me from seeing him for just about no reason at all.I've

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Drawing a collective breathI could cry myself to deathAnd wash this all awayIn a flash you were goneLeaving me a couple of songsThat I listen to everydayAnd I don't even careThat you were so unfairI worshipped one time at your feetSave up our tearsCatalogue all our fearsGive into the stretching yearsYour words hit me just last nightWhen I saw it with the after sightWhat was on your mindIt's too

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The worst is when Im just sitting home chilling and a wave of sadness rolls over me and for no reason I just start crying. Tonight, not only am I crying, but I just want to vomit* and make it all go away.*I dont want to start letting myself vomit it all away. I recognize that its one of the ways I used to self-harm when I was really messed up a few years ago. I dont want to go back there.

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I might have made it out, and had a good time, but now that Im home my head is all foggy or something. Im not dizzy, but Im not right either. I really cant wait for whatever it is that I have to pass.

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It might indicate a problem when the girl wakes up after being sick in bed, unable to eat, for two whole days and her first thought isnt "Ew, when was the last time I brushed my teeth?", but in face "I wonder if I lost any weight?".If there was a scale in this house I'd drive myself foolish.Nonetheless, I think Im almost over the worst sickness I've had in ages. Wednesday morning I woke up at 8am

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Best line I've heard/read in a while: i have a job with the government and i am still more punk than you

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Okay, dont tell anybody, but I actually like a Country music song. There's just something about the song Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood that is pleasing to my ears. As Marilou put it "Its a good fuck you song". Although, it wont ever beat You Oughta Know by Alanis Morissette, or even Angels Fuck and Devils Kiss by Jack Off Jill.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-3356064543583161152007-06-02T03:42:00.000-03:002007-06-02T03:51:26.682-03:00

Somedays its like Im just keeping up a facade to please everyone else. Its a lot of pressure to be this person, to not disappoint everybody.

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.jenna. (shower) says: ahhh cleanAmanda says: yay.jenna. says: im still somewhat naked, and all wet thoughAmanda says: just the way i like you lol.jenna. says: rawrAmanda says: hahaha

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I saw my doctor today, mostly to get him to write a note that I wont be ready to go back to work on June 13th. He feels its time for me to be on medication for my depression because I really havent improved since I saw him last. He called the pharmacy and told him to do me up a prescription for Paxil. Its still sitting there, mostly because I dont have the money to pay for it, and because I

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I just have no concentration lately. I cant sit and do one thing for very long but I completely lose interest in it. Its not simply being lazy, I just cant concentrate. That, and it would be boring for me to go on about the details of my nights of constantly being on the go. I dont go far, but always moving is a good thing, it doesnt allow my mind to wander to the dark places.That, and the one

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-28143148514124613332007-05-18T14:20:00.000-03:002007-05-18T14:21:44.454-03:00

This post at Waiter Rant gives me hope.

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On Tuesday I went to the ER to see my doctor, and he confirmed what everybody already knew about me, that Im not right in the head. Actually, he called it "depression" but whatever, its all the same thing. I have mental illness so that makes me special or something. Nonetheless, Im fairly textbook when it comes to the depression, but once I finally get to see a head doctor I'll get an exact

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-70523988523638405502007-05-01T01:21:00.000-03:002007-05-01T01:35:17.787-03:00

Tonight was too surreal to talk about now. Suffice it to say it was really not how I had planned on spending my evening. It wasnt bad, mind you, just unexpected.Oh, and I have to give a shout out to Tracy ...and Nick? Wow Im popular ;)

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Well, today's been interesting so far, no?

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Wow, my stats are up, I guess tragedy does draw a crowd. If you're reading because you actually are curious to see how Im doing, thank you. If you're just hanging around to see if I finally give in and off myself, well, obviously I havent. Sorry, I'll try harder. What surprises me is that there is a LOT of local people who read, many more than I actually know about. This actually makes me curious

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-16397658483808197292007-04-29T11:25:00.000-03:002007-04-29T11:59:10.096-03:00

I started measuring time in good days and bad days. Thursday, was a very bad day. Well, in the afternoon anyhow. Thursday afternoon I just layed on the bed for hours wanting to die. When Corrine got home from school she invited me to her house for supper and to watch Grey's Anatomy. I've been making it a point to try and get out everyday because that makes things bearable, so I agreed. Supper was

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Today isnt a good day. Im tired of being too depressed to function.

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It was when she asked me when the last time I ever felt happy, that it really hit home. I've never actually felt happy, never that I can ever remember. I knew I was making the right choice, I cant live like this any longer. Today, you see, I broke down and walked into the ER of the Regional hospital and admitted that I needed to talk to someone about the overwhelming sadness and anxiety that I've

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What happened on the Virginia Tech campus last week was a tragedy. But, like what happened at Columbine eight years ago, I refuse to jump on the bandwagon and just call the shooter evil and deranged. Obviously dude had issues, but I think this article sums it up well.Also, this thread at Daily Kos felt like it was written by me. We atheists do not believe in gods, or angels, or demons, or souls

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So last week's hookup was really friggin random. He'll be referred to as Mr. Man for now because I dont care to broadcast his identity across the entire internet for reasons which are somewhat complicated and I just dont feel like going there right now. Back to my story. It was Easter Sunday and I was home chillin and talkin to people online, killing time on an otherwise boring evening. It was

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So.... how are things? Its been a while, huh? I can explain that. Coming to the realization that I was essentially being cyber-stalked by you know who, required me taking a step back for a little while and reevaluating what I do and what I dont post. The new Blogger has the option to set my blog to be password protected, but I refuse to do that. I am not the lesser person here, and while I may be

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He fucked me. Corrine, he fucked me. He picked me up, and we parked, and he fucked me in the front seat of his car. The performance wasnt stellar, but it'll do for now. Call me for details ;)

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hellomy name is dirty maryyour horny secretaryi'll be whatever you want me to bei can be a motherfuckin slutyou simply have to ask itand you will see this mary gettin nasty

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Im not dead, but my router is. This means my internet time is fairly limited when Im not at work, and when I am at work I really dont have it in me to come up with anything. Perhaps when I get wireless back my muse will come with it.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-25646854457175018492007-03-19T21:53:00.000-03:002007-03-19T22:17:46.661-03:00

And yes, I realize that we're probably the only people who will find this amusing..jenna. says: i can ask them when i go for my massage on saturday if you want.jenna. says: ooooh or you can go with me!Corrine says: wonderful!.jenna. says: its at noonCorrine says: ooo.jenna. says: that way you can get the lowdown.jenna. says: scope the place out and whatnot.jenna. says: we'll be like spies.jenna.

eye candyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10816082413147038949noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3704817.post-68760473083229883502007-03-17T00:23:00.000-03:002007-03-17T00:24:23.596-03:00

Ryan says boys should come with decoder rings. Angel says that "boys are the new girls, cant figure out what they want".Either way, Im really damn confused. I wish I could figure him out.

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Apparently in my neighbourhood its appropriate for children to be prancing about the neighbourhood in March dressed up as a unicorn. You cant really tell from the pic, but it was a full costume with a full headpiece and horn, and huge wings.

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Twice. Twice in one weekend, I saw the movie 300.Yes, it is that good.It was Pat who first showed me the trailer on YouTube or something a couple of months ago. I knew immediately I needed to see the movie, and I needed to see it in theatre. I had talked about it with other people, and coming close to release, Ryan and I had bantered around the idea of seeing it when it opened. I would have gone

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