its all a beautiful blur











{Thursday, December 18}
Its been a while.

I just havent had the energy to thing about something interesting to write about. Not that anything on here already is interesting, but you know.

Me and her are still fighting. At this poing I could care less about "patching things up" or whatever. Someone who attacks you calling you down and making little jabs at you is NOT someone I want as my friend. I dont even bother going on MSN messenger for the simple fact that I just dont want to talk to her. She even emailed me saying she was the bigger person in the whole thing. All I wanted to say to her was to go fuck herself, but I didnt. I never do.

Work has been crazy. Tier 1 has been hundreds of calls waiting for the past week or so but they've had me in tier 2 more in the past couple of weeks because tier 2 was like an hour wait. I really like being in tier 2 but I dont want a permanant position there because I would lose my seniority.

We're all getting new teams on Sunday. I hate to see my team broken up. I loved my team. We've all been together since months, some of us since way back in June. Thats a long time to be together and now we all have to move. The supervisor they put me with assaulted an agent last year on another contract. I asked to be removed from her team and I was told that I would be, but I wont find out until Saturday when I go back to work.

Boyfriend got a new shift. His shift is 1:15pm-11:45pm with Sunday/Thursday/Saturday off. This means that we'll have two days off together a week. He seemed kind of excited about it. Our relationship is different lately. He's different lately. Even he noticed it. Its like he actually likes having me around and spending time with me. It makes me feel good that we've finally reached a good point in our relationship. Its like back when we first started going out, only we've got history.

We were supposed to have company coming for Christmas but now they're not coming because things came up. Its kinda relieving actually. Its nice to have people home, but I hate having company staying at our house.

I have to go shopping tomorrow. I love going shopping. I need to finish my Christmas shopping and buy socks. I'll have absolutely no money for the next two weeks though. Oh well, Boyfriend has been paying for stuff for me lately anyway.

I think I've gone thorough everything, who knows when I'll post again..


{Wednesday, December 3}
So I was sick again this week. This time it was due to being forced to stand in the freezing cold and watch a parade. I was not happy.

Today was our first storm day. I stayed home from work and finished decorating for Christmas.

I've had a friend of mine picking fights with me the past few days. I dont feel like elaborating on it right now, perhaps later tonight I will get a little more into it.


its all a beautiful blur

I am a twenty-seven year old Canadian girl. This is my blog.

Skin and tragedy always attract a crowd. (June 18th, 1976 by Pedro the Lion)

I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary screamin' out aloud
And I know that you'll use them however you want to.
(Breathe (2am) by Anna Nalick)


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