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{Saturday, June 21}
Why do guys suck? Sometimes I wonder if all boyfriends are idiots, or just mine. He and I were hangin out at my house yesterday afternoon and he told me that I cant trust him at work because if he goes when he's "hot and bothered" he'll be more "indifferent" to cheating on me if someone there comes on to him. And laughs it off like it means nothing! Arrgh guys suck sometimes. So I wait up for him after work and he calls me when he gets home and tells me that he meant nothing by it, he was joking and I "know how he is". So I call him on the fact that he always wants me to call him on my breaks, but not once has he ever called me on one of his (more important people to talk to, you know). He said I never asked him to. (!!!!!!!!!!!) Oh, it only gets better. I let him in on my little nagging feeling that I've been having that he's hiding something from me. (He's hid things from me before and done things behind my back before, so dont accuse me of being off my rocker.) His response: "If I was hiding something from you dont you think that *insert his best friend's name here* would have something to say about it?" !!!!!!!! Like his best friend would run to me if something was being hidden. Like really, there was no "I wouldnt hide anything from you" or "no, Im not hiding anything from you". Then he went to bed cuz he was tired. I felt no better. I still feel no better. All he did was make himself look guilty and run away. Urgh, guys suck.

What makes it workse is that its a beautiful Saturday afternoon and Im stuck at work. Not only that, but the calls are busy too. I want to be at home. Actually I want to be anywhere but here. I'd like to go to the beach or something today. Im off again tomorrow though, which is a bonus. It'll be my first Sunday off in months. I like having Sundays off, everyone else is off on Sundays and its a perfect beach day. Yesterday was my last Friday off for the next while due to the shift change. I'll miss having Fridays off because its payday. But hopefully I'll spend less money because I wont be able to take a run into the mall on payday and blow half my pay. How did I spend my last Friday off? Doing nothing. I went to a graduation party in the evening and by the time I got home I was too exhausted to possibly go anywhere or do anything. Oh well, nothing was what I was doing every Friday, at least now I'll have something to do. Hopefully the calls will slow down some to make the day go by quicker.


{Friday, June 20}
Well, its approximately 9 months later and Im still alive. Im still with the same guy, I still live at home, I have pretty much the same friends. I think the only thing that has changed really is my job. I moved from being a telemarketer to my current job of being a tech support rep for stupid people who break their internet. Dont get me wrong, I like my job for the most part and everything, but the people who call in are so stupid *sigh*. I swear there are somedays that the only thing that gets me through the day are joking about the stupid callers with my co-workers.

I dont have much to bitch about this evening, I've actually got a few things to look forward to. My birthday is in one week (June 26th). I'll be a whopping 22 years of age (wow Im certainly getting up there). My friends and I are going out this Sunday for my birthday because we're all off on Sunday. I start my new shift at work on Monday and then I've got Tuesday/Wednesday/Thursday off. Its gonna be sweet.

Time for bed, tomorrow I will most likely be around to bitch about something or another.


its all a beautiful blur

I am a twenty-seven year old Canadian girl. This is my blog.

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And I know that you'll use them however you want to.
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